The Websolace

This post is for day three and glad to say I’m still standing….. strong!

I’m sorry for not making this clear from day one, for most of you it’s blurry why drinking and swearing are involved in this fast. You see I would never drink knowing I have nothing on my stomach. I actually dislike getting drunk and puking, great that it has only happened to me twice ever. Therefore if I rid myself of food, I wouldn’t be tempted to drink at all since we all know alcohol has a stronger effect on people with empty stomachs. As for swearing, it’s as simple as wanting to stop or at least tone down significantly.

This fast has proved to be life changing already, above the shallow context I provided as reason, there’s more to it.

I’ve never achieved something worth achieving without hard work; something I’ve always taken for granted. That thought joined me as I awoke and kept me pondering throughout the day. It’s not enough for me to put my mind into something because most of the time I’m really bad at execution; I’m a dreamer. This week long struggle had put much meaning back to what hard work is and how the universe can present you with so many temptations so bad that even one bite out of that would ruin everything.

The bigger picture is that this fast has reviewed me faster of the things I should already have in heart compared to running into consequences in the future. How great it is to finally think of yourself first, discipline and steady your mind to control your heart.

As for starvation, I can say I’ve put my mind over that already. The remaining days will be a test of my will and commitment to see this fast end as it should.

Thank you for all your support, I’d especially like to give a warm hug to Maluz for being there for me to annoy on some guidelines for this undertaking.

Day two of the one week fast and I’m feeling a little under the weather.

The good news is that I’m resisting the urge to eat very well, the longer I go on for, the easier it gets.

I’m monitoring my body and a lot of things feel different:

• I’m a little cranky; irritable
• I chill at the same temperature I usually have the aircon on
• With regards to stamina, I’m holding on pretty well, no signs of weariness

Temptations…are everywhere. I’ve never walked the world like this; every few minutes of walking I’m hinted with the scent of food. That’s not something everybody notices often! Especially yesterday when I had to buy a lot of Propel to keep me up –walking in the grocery was hell. Habits are hard to break too, whenever I would go down from my room the first thing I would check is either the dining tabe or fridge for a quick bite.

Overall, I’m confident that I’ll be able to complete this week long fast, I’ve already gone through a day and a half without eating, why waste the effort right?

I haven’t been really keeping track if I’m losing weight, at this point it no longer mattered to me as much. It doesn’t leave the fast pointless though, it’s something new for me as well as a chance to prove to myself alone that I’ll be able to pull this off and all the other reasons, albeit better, is intimately mine to keep secret.

To the people supporting me in this, thank you very much, your words of encouragement; each and everyone of them do not go unsung and I don’t think I’ll be able to even finish day one without them.

“Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best and expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side as long as you are true to the best that is in you!”