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May 1, 2009

Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne

Filed under: Exclusive — Isamu @ 4:06 am

The best indication I have of my maturity has to be the not-so-subtle changes and needs in life.

Beer as an example.

Once new to alcohol itself, I preferred the ultimate beer a man could ask for–draft. Served straight from the keg or from the very machine used to filter it. Raw, pure…beer. Tastes great, a man’s man drinks this stuff. Over the course of my own aging, issues like calorie counting and alcohol content arised. Draft didn’t have the refinements I wanted; it was good, then there came better. Lights had lower calories, tasted sorta like draft but.. was unique to itself. I grew a few years, my criteria changed again according to the flow of my needs.

Even as shallow as to beer, there was passion in it. You spend time with something and you eventually get hooked, building a foundation around it. You get older and even your poison in drinking becomes unsettlling. The first and second weren’t willing to go the same pace I was– even if we’re just talking about static editions of beer. A gist; I made no mistake in draft nor lights, they were great but direction in drinking led to a change of preference.

Like nomads of before, we don’t really stay the same place when there’s a lack of sufficiency in the need that got us to where we were. We move on because life depends on it the same way it would have killed them once the supply of food ran out.

Not thinking selfishly, leave with grace. The beer was great, the shelter and habitat were too. Someday after we’ve left there’ll someone else to appreciate what we’ve passed through. The beer will always be drank and loved as the latter will flourish with sustenance again to accomodate others. Sometimes a sad story but somehow it’s part of the cycle of life. Change is constant, certain and is necessary for progress.

The desire for something better drives the will to move on. Knowing there will be –provides the motivation. In my own journey, I had to sum up the courage and bravery myself which led me to walk on the same same same road as I always have. The changes I’ve incurred throughout the path strengthened the way.

One day I know I’ll be finally happy with a certain distro of beer. I’ll be happy because I’ve peaked; I’m content. I’ll reminisce all that I’ve drank as if they weren’t there to be, I wouldn’t have built such a wall of quality to understand what I really wanted.

There’s a reason they came into my life and for the most part, I’m just thankful they did.

To alcohol, to the memories we might never recall, yet to the beers we’ll never forget.

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April 26, 2009

I have a bad habit of waking up at 2AM

Filed under: Exclusive — Isamu @ 2:02 am

..with a smile.

Tonight I did something different and went back in time to actually read a poem I wrote. I never do this. Whenever I write a letter or poem, I wish it away to whoever I wrote it for; there’s always someone behind the writeup, whether it’s a friend, a love interest or to myself. You can check it out at: http://netcriminal.livejournal.com/57010.html.

I’m shocked. Maybe you’ll never understand the feeling of being born tomorrow when you lived yesterday too much; I’m awoken.

Reading back in time got me contemplating that I used to be a genius where now I only possess the blunt honesty having stripped off all the poetic sugarcoating. It makes me happy that I documented every experience and how it felt in a public web log. I can literally read myself growing up; all the stumbles and peaks and crashes. In a grand conclusion about myself I could honestly say I’ve lost a lot of the compassion I had for things, nevertheless, there was no major change but dozens of tweaks for the better and to balance out things.. for the worse too.

It had me reminisce how much I was in love with someone. It reminded me of certain scars of the past that shaped how I now cope with the present. At some point, I actually felt as if I was reading through another person’s writings, partly because I never read my writes, but it showed me my own evolution. It made me happy; it made me smile that I’m living the future I wrote about myself in the past. I remained strong, firm to ideals and I never lost sight of the direction a prepubescent boy carved the path for.

I didn’t turn out so bad after all, I’m living committed to the best things in life I knew all along.

Stay in love and never ever stop writing.

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March 17, 2009

The Arlie Serquiña movement

Filed under: Exclusive — Isamu @ 11:48 pm

I’m going fasting for one week.

No solid food, just water or juice with minimal sugar.

Why? I want to prove something; that I can lose weight if I want to, no matter what the cost or hardship.

I’m expected to lose about fifteen pounds minimum, with exercise and other factors, up to twenty or even more.

Of course, it’s not just weight I’ll be losing, I want to be able to remove swearing from my vocabulary. Another is that I need to stop my bad binge on alcohol.

Yes, this is a complete detoxification of all my bodily dwelling demons!

This week is going to be…………… hard, but like they said, it’s always the first three days.

My greatest fear is that… well… I change, personally. I’ve been _nearly_ fit before, didn’t like what I turned out to be. I became a jerk and a lot other things, that’s why I’m constantly wishing that I can have the body of a fit person yet have the awesomeness of a husky guy.

I hope you all support me on this, my victory…. well, is just MY victory, yeah, MINE. Kidding, I love you all.

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March 14, 2009

The next chapter // State of the person address

Filed under: Exclusive — Isamu @ 4:31 am

By reading beyond this line, you’re agreeing to open your mind and listen to me intently, I’m about to open up something awesome.

The current state of Isamu…. is….. GOOD.

This last month was hell on so many levels. I can’t even begin to enumerate the struggles I had to face in so little time. The divine/universe/flying spaghetti monster, whatever omnipotency you discipline yourself in certainly has the power to move and change your life in a split second. Of course, when it does take something away from you, it always compensates you back; like good Algebra and a clean balance sheet.

Mayhem in my heart that burdens my mind never stops until I decide for myself. I stopped seeing a point to pause progression, growth and life itself dahil natumba ako. The will was always there yet I initially chose to see how strong I was; that was answered for me.

Where I used to find comfort wasn’t at ease anymore. Where I used to be happy didn’t make me smile anymore. Where I fell, reassured me I still got to keep the bigger part of my heart. Where I left off, certainly wasn’t going to wait for me so I had to move on.

Ultimately, I realized adulthood had so many in store for me. The next chapter starts when it starts. In terms with being a man, I’ve never measured it through testosterone levels. I see it fit that everyone who calls himself a man knows commitment and consequence. For there’s no passion without commitment and consequence should follow every thought of action, else be in shame. Wala naman naging masama sa pagmamahal ng tunay, just give it everything. After all, you can’t say I love you and not say I do.

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October 19, 2008

Birthday post

Filed under: Exclusive — Isamu @ 11:29 am

Woke up today unusually early feeling like I was floating, then I realized I’m still fat.

Nevertheless, a smile on my face. Always better ever year.

Seriously, gimme Rock Band 2 now.

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Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne

April 26, 2009

I have a bad habit of waking up at 2AM

March 17, 2009

The Arlie Serquiña movement

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The next chapter // State of the person address

October 19, 2008

Birthday post

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