Suffering

11
Jan/10
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Life is bundled with a lot of shit but never more than you can take. Pain is universal, even left unsaid most of the time. Take for example: I’ve had my eye on these ridiculously expensive headphones that I’ve been craving for a while now. Nothing ever wrong to want something; a large part of my life can be laid down by my material possessions. Then when I really think about it; I am consumed by obsession of wanting what I could not get right now. It’s something to look forward to but I am pained that I don’t have it when I’ve desired it the most.

 

I’ve easily succumbed myself to suffering. This desire engulfed me with pain.

 

I’ve been put to compromise and unrest until I get what I want. It has always been this way for me. I have never considered other factors that might calm the situation, like weighing how this could set off my happiness if left unfulfilled. Desire isn’t a bullet you could dodge.

 

Through meditation I have played outcomes of two scenarios: I get the headphones and I am happy. Being human, it doesn’t last very long. There’s always going to be something else, something greater to want. The other scenario is if I don’t get it which I’ll just continue onto desire. Whether or I get it or not, I am put to unrest either way.

 

While not a scenario by itself, there is a solution –to let go. Unstringing myself from desire ultimately frees me from being troubled by any outcome. It seems to be a discipline by itself. Easier said than done, especially when you are put in a state of denial of not wanting. How do you clear your heart and mind of human burdens?

 

Letting go seems to be a powerful habit. Being able to overcome desire and avoid pain. It’s almost divine. It paves a way to contentment, which is to me is happiness without effort. Life is bundled with a lot of shit but never more than you can take.